Action: the cycle I want to stop. No more shame.
My shame symptoms include:
I know I am in shame when I fell_________________________. If I could taste shame, it would taste like_________________________. If I could smell shame, it would taste like___________________. If I could touch shame, it would feel like___________________.
shame has physical symptoms. These might include your mouth getting dry, time seeming to slow down, your hear racing, twitching, looking down and tunnel vision, These symptoms are different from one person to the next. If you learn your physical symptoms, you can recognize shame and get back on your feet faster
I want to be perceived as ______________ _____________ _____________
I do not want to be perceived as _____________ _____________ _____________
Actions: The person I no longer want to be.
what are you hiding behind? what masks are you wearing?
Actions: who I want to be!!
write a word or short phrase representing what you want, claim what God intended for you to be
example: In my heart I will be content In my mind I will be positive
In my heart
In my Mind
In my Actions
In my soul
In my life
IN my walk
In my dreams
In my Days
In all things
In touching others
In singing praises
In passing time
In breathing
In play
In devotional time
In visions
In the beginning
In this season
IN the future
In the Past
In this day
In tomorow
in all my days
Thursday, 31 January 2013
Shame
hey everyone this week has been so heavy and emotional draining, Yesterday we talked about forgiveness and its really hard for me to write a blog about it because its such a rich subject and would take several pages to cover all that lynn talked about.
Guilt= I did something bad, its a behavior it does not define who you are God may use guilt to open your eyes to the wrongs you have caused by saying hey lets make this right and lets repent about it.
Shame= I am bad, its who I am It defines me. comes from the devil (I believe)
How to get out of Shame
Numb
when you feel numb you feel nothing...
why do we make ourselves numb? self defense, no pain, copycatting, tragedy, control, rebellion, fear, escape, self hatred, lies, insecurities, anger, over-whelmed, desperate, coping, stressed, abused
when we numb we want to take away usually one area of emotional but we don't work in that way. we end up numbing all emotions which unfortunately end up blocking Gods love and teachings
why do we make ourselves numb? self defense, no pain, copycatting, tragedy, control, rebellion, fear, escape, self hatred, lies, insecurities, anger, over-whelmed, desperate, coping, stressed, abused
when we numb we want to take away usually one area of emotional but we don't work in that way. we end up numbing all emotions which unfortunately end up blocking Gods love and teachings
we numb ourselves with drugs drinking technology sex.
where does it start why does it start? ... Shame ...
where does it start why does it start? ... Shame ...
Shame
- shame is the state of our souls in a deep sickness. Its a painful feeling of humiliation or distress caused by consciousness of wrong or foolish behavior. a loss of respect of self esteem, Dishonor.
- its a painful feeling of believing your a reject and feeling of unwanted and unloved
- society convinces us that the less we talk about shame the more control it has over us.
Guilt= I did something bad, its a behavior it does not define who you are God may use guilt to open your eyes to the wrongs you have caused by saying hey lets make this right and lets repent about it.
Shame= I am bad, its who I am It defines me. comes from the devil (I believe)
How to get out of Shame
we have to live and be real authentic and vulnerable
Romans 12:2
New International Version (NIV)
2 Do not conform to the pattern of this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind. Then you will be able to test and approve what God’s will is—his good, pleasing and perfect will.
Ephesians 4:22
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22 You were taught, with regard to your former way of life, to put off your old self, which is being corrupted by its deceitful desires;
Colossians 3:8
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8 But now you must also rid yourselves of all such things as these: anger, rage, malice, slander, and filthy language from your lips.
Romans 6:6
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6 For we know that our old self was crucified with him so that the body ruled by sin might be done away with,[a] that we should no longer be slaves to sin—
its 1000 little choices you have to make of not allowing your mind to go places
watch your thoughts so they become words watch your words so they become actions watch your actions so they become habits watch your habits for they become your character watch your character for it becomes your destiny what we think we become.
Romans 12:2
New International Version (NIV)
2 Do not conform to the pattern of this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind. Then you will be able to test and approve what God’s will is—his good, pleasing and perfect will.
Ephesians 4:22
New International Version (NIV)
22 You were taught, with regard to your former way of life, to put off your old self, which is being corrupted by its deceitful desires;
Colossians 3:8
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8 But now you must also rid yourselves of all such things as these: anger, rage, malice, slander, and filthy language from your lips.
Romans 6:6
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6 For we know that our old self was crucified with him so that the body ruled by sin might be done away with,[a] that we should no longer be slaves to sin—
its 1000 little choices you have to make of not allowing your mind to go places
watch your thoughts so they become words watch your words so they become actions watch your actions so they become habits watch your habits for they become your character watch your character for it becomes your destiny what we think we become.
its 1000 little choices you have to make of not allowing your mind to go places
watch your thoughts so they become words watch your words so they become actions watch your actions so they become habits watch your habits for they become your character watch your character for it becomes your destiny what we think we become.
Tuesday, 29 January 2013
Week 5 Lyn Toney
"I want you to get it"
well first of all we have to figure out what it is.. IT is different for a lot of people but the big picture is that it is freedom
Freedom at its basic form is Gods love do you get it?
some times its extremely hard for people to expect this since there view of love is really distorted this video really helped me grasp Gods love for me if you have the time no MAKE time to watch it! ;)
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=FgzXXKjaPZA
its call the Inheritance By Graham Cooke
4 types of Love <3
Agape- Love, expressed in action, Unconditional love, Its the highest level we humans can understand. Its what it does its not how it feels Matthew 5:43-48 describes this kind of love
Matthew 5:43-48
New International Version (NIV)
Love for Enemies
43 “You have heard that it was said, ‘Love your neighbor[a] and hate your enemy.’ 44 But I tell you, love your enemies and pray for those who persecute you, 45 that you may be children of your Father in heaven. He causes his sun to rise on the evil and the good, and sends rain on the righteous and the unrighteous. 46 If you love those who love you, what reward will you get? Are not even the tax collectors doing that? 47 And if you greet only your own people, what are you doing more than others? Do not even pagans do that? 48 Be perfect, therefore, as your heavenly Father is perfect.
Eros-not in the bible its erotic love its no longer beautiful and pure more or dirty and ruined.
Phileo- friendhsip love, emotional, to have interst in someone or something, strong connection
storage- Family, parents, siblings, spouses, protection love
all these four loves get distorted by the world and become something they are not suppose to be. They are suppose to be safe and healthy :)
43 “You have heard that it was said, ‘Love your neighbor[a] and hate your enemy.’ 44 But I tell you, love your enemies and pray for those who persecute you, 45 that you may be children of your Father in heaven. He causes his sun to rise on the evil and the good, and sends rain on the righteous and the unrighteous. 46 If you love those who love you, what reward will you get? Are not even the tax collectors doing that? 47 And if you greet only your own people, what are you doing more than others? Do not even pagans do that? 48 Be perfect, therefore, as your heavenly Father is perfect.
Eros-not in the bible its erotic love its no longer beautiful and pure more or dirty and ruined.
Phileo- friendhsip love, emotional, to have interst in someone or something, strong connection
storage- Family, parents, siblings, spouses, protection love
all these four loves get distorted by the world and become something they are not suppose to be. They are suppose to be safe and healthy :)
Tuesday, 22 January 2013
The Lords Prayer broken down
9 Our Father which art in heaven, Hallowed be thy name.
I acknowledge God as Father, And being Christians we represent Gods name so when the say holy be thy name that means help me learn to honor your name. like when your parents say you're a Smith act like one!
10 Thy kingdom come, Thy will be done in earth, as it is in heaven.
these two lines mean the same thing. It means rule and reign of God. Let us act like how we would act in Heaven and keep us safe like we would be in heaven.
11 Give us this day our daily bread.
give me what I need not what I greed
12 And forgive us our debts, as we forgive our debtors.
I want no relationships to stand in the way of God and myself. If someone owns you you have a problem! you need to ask God to release you of that sin and forgive
13 And lead us not into temptation, but deliver us from evil: For thine is the kingdom, and the power, and the glory, for ever. Amen.
God will never tempt you with evil but he'll however test you but you do get stronger with resistance :)
Hearing Gods Voice and Praying
We live in a world filled with Facetime Facebook instagram twitter we are constantly in communication talking to our friends and love ones there is no silence and when there is we consider it awkward because we are not use to it... So when it comes to hearing Gods voice we usually get ticked off because we think our relationship with him is non existent because he doesn't reply quickly. we need to calm down sit and listen to God
-We need to have a heart of a champion
-have a pencil ready
-eyes of a hunter
-and ears of the prey
2. And does it Follow scripture
Be still and know that I am God Psalm 46:10
from this passage we can learn a lot about prayer and hearing Gods voice. When its says be still and know IAM its meaning praise him, its different than thanksgiving. Thanksgiving is for what he does praise is for who he his. I know God when I see sunrises I know God when I see mountains and rainfalls I know Gods love when people hug me or I hear sermons
Be still and know. that is a call to the truth, Be real and honest God already knows who you are why not get real with him? When I scream and cry to God what I give up to him he replaces with peace
and lastly what we can learn from this passage be still and know that I am God is that its alright just to be and rest wait upon the Lord.
-We need to have a heart of a champion
-have a pencil ready
-eyes of a hunter
-and ears of the prey
we also need to consider is it in fact Gods voice what we are hearing? these are two tools to know
1.If its not something out of love its not from God2. And does it Follow scripture
Be still and know that I am God Psalm 46:10
from this passage we can learn a lot about prayer and hearing Gods voice. When its says be still and know IAM its meaning praise him, its different than thanksgiving. Thanksgiving is for what he does praise is for who he his. I know God when I see sunrises I know God when I see mountains and rainfalls I know Gods love when people hug me or I hear sermons
Be still and know. that is a call to the truth, Be real and honest God already knows who you are why not get real with him? When I scream and cry to God what I give up to him he replaces with peace
-Philippians 4:6-7
New International Version (NIV)
6 Do not be anxious about anything, but in every situation, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. 7 And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus.
Monday, 21 January 2013
Week 4
This is just the notes from today take what you like from it :)
What does it mean to walk with God
The glory of God is man fully alive, are you? are you trusting in God with everything you have?
Stop worrying he is on your side follow his path!
trust in the lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding
What does it mean to walk with God
W - Worshiping God
A - approaching God daily with prayer in a set time for him
L-loving other Christians
K- knowing the word of God
I- investing in the kingdom of God
N- nurturing
G- giving your life to serve God
-we are worried to win and be victorious but we so often pursue the wrong trophies. the ultimate prize is God :)
-I will never be the woman I am suppose to be unless I devote myself to God and trust in his plans he has for me
Dioko is the Hebrew word for pursue and I had a weird realization today what if i pursued God as hard as i pursue Patrick (sorry Patrick this is not a bad thing :p) but what would happen then this blows my mind :)
God is so big and all knowing why would you not trust the creator or the earth and the stars
"know for this part do not assume i am telling you that you don't have to go to "church" that's not what I am saying I am saying that should not be your main focus"
worship is not about where you worship but who you worship its not about the fact you go to church "A building" but who you love...Christ Jesus, its your heart behind it. you could go to church and completely miss the point of Christianity to know God on a personal level.
This is for all you ladies reading this ;) a main part of worshiping God is being okay with your body you can't love God and hate your Body. If you're a strong Christian and your ripping yourself apart that's slapping God in the face!! he created you how he wanted to. And if you say well I have died my hair I have broken my nose or gained a lot of weight that's the devil trying to ruin your life TRUST IN THE LORD! he knows your life he knows your heart and you are beautiful. I was reading the Book captivating that my friend Stacia gave me and it talks about Women having stressful beauty.. you're are probably thinking what the heck is that lol ? well that's when some on is constantly trying to watch what the eat work out like crazy and nit picking at everything they don't like about themselves when in fact they are gorgeous its just stressful to be around.. have you ever met someone like that? where you don't feel great leaving a conversation from them. What about have you ever met someone where they are just filled with the holy spirit and have such a pure and joyful heart that beauty flows from the inside out and its rejuvenating to be around them :) I have I have loads of people in my life like my Mom, Carolyn, Stacia, Katie, Kaitlin, and Brittni so so much more women. sorry if I forgot your names.
But i am so stocked for this week God has already taught me so much!
A - approaching God daily with prayer in a set time for him
L-loving other Christians
K- knowing the word of God
I- investing in the kingdom of God
N- nurturing
G- giving your life to serve God
Dioko is the Hebrew word for pursue and I had a weird realization today what if i pursued God as hard as i pursue Patrick (sorry Patrick this is not a bad thing :p) but what would happen then this blows my mind :)
This is for all you ladies reading this ;) a main part of worshiping God is being okay with your body you can't love God and hate your Body. If you're a strong Christian and your ripping yourself apart that's slapping God in the face!! he created you how he wanted to. And if you say well I have died my hair I have broken my nose or gained a lot of weight that's the devil trying to ruin your life TRUST IN THE LORD! he knows your life he knows your heart and you are beautiful. I was reading the Book captivating that my friend Stacia gave me and it talks about Women having stressful beauty.. you're are probably thinking what the heck is that lol ? well that's when some on is constantly trying to watch what the eat work out like crazy and nit picking at everything they don't like about themselves when in fact they are gorgeous its just stressful to be around.. have you ever met someone like that? where you don't feel great leaving a conversation from them. What about have you ever met someone where they are just filled with the holy spirit and have such a pure and joyful heart that beauty flows from the inside out and its rejuvenating to be around them :) I have I have loads of people in my life like my Mom, Carolyn, Stacia, Katie, Kaitlin, and Brittni so so much more women. sorry if I forgot your names.
But i am so stocked for this week God has already taught me so much!
Thursday, 17 January 2013
Isaiah 61:1-3
I was reading the book Captivating and came across an explanation of the passage Isaiah 61:1 and thought it was so cool. That is why I am sharing it with you! Enjoy
Isaiah 61:1-3
New International Version (NIV)
The Year of the Lord’s Favor
61 The Spirit of the Sovereign Lord is on me,
because the Lord has anointed me
to proclaim good news to the poor.
He has sent me to bind up the brokenhearted,
to proclaim freedom for the captives
and release from darkness for the prisoners,[a]
2 to proclaim the year of the Lord’s favor
and the day of vengeance of our God,
to comfort all who mourn,
3 and provide for those who grieve in Zion—
to bestow on them a crown of beauty
instead of ashes,
the oil of joy
instead of mourning,
and a garment of praise
instead of a spirit of despair.
They will be called oaks of righteousness,
a planting of the Lord
for the display of his splendor.
because the Lord has anointed me
to proclaim good news to the poor.
He has sent me to bind up the brokenhearted,
to proclaim freedom for the captives
and release from darkness for the prisoners,[a]
2 to proclaim the year of the Lord’s favor
and the day of vengeance of our God,
to comfort all who mourn,
3 and provide for those who grieve in Zion—
to bestow on them a crown of beauty
instead of ashes,
the oil of joy
instead of mourning,
and a garment of praise
instead of a spirit of despair.
They will be called oaks of righteousness,
a planting of the Lord
for the display of his splendor.
In terms we can Understand :)
God has sent me on a mission
I have some great news for you
God has sent me to restore and release something
and that something is you
I am here to give you back your heart and set you free.
I am furious at the enemy who did this to you, and I will fight
against him
let me comfort you.
for, dear one, I will bestow beauty upon you
where you have known only devastation.
Joy, in the places of your deep sorrow.
and I will robe your heart in thankful praise
in exchange for your resignation and despair
Wednesday, 16 January 2013
Sin and Shame
-Adam and Eve sinned against God and ate the forbidden fruit, by doing this they lost the connection from God, but he never left them. a wall was just placed between us. Through eating they became shameful. and sadly shame distorts how people see things. Shame means "A painful feeling of humiliation or distress caused by the consciousness of wrong or foolish behavior." The punishment for sin for woman was child birth and for man it was labor and through both of these punishments they bring life the reason they are so hard is because we cut ourselves off from the ultimate life source, God!
-If the wages of sin is death does that mean you will automatically die once you sin? no! for example it means if you commit adultery the end result can come to divorce of your marriage. however grace (GOD) can step in and save what ever is lost.
-If there is a food we hate we usually say I don't like it or that's yucky. Most people believe that's how God reacts to our sin. But if Jesus is just like the trinity in Heaven and on Earth HE HUNG OUT WITH SINNERS! wow shocker lol. God does not turn his back when we sin. We are also not defined by our sin. God does not hate us he hates the Garbage that holds us down. Gods love is always constant we don't loose it nor do we earn it.
-If the wages of sin is death does that mean you will automatically die once you sin? no! for example it means if you commit adultery the end result can come to divorce of your marriage. however grace (GOD) can step in and save what ever is lost.
-If there is a food we hate we usually say I don't like it or that's yucky. Most people believe that's how God reacts to our sin. But if Jesus is just like the trinity in Heaven and on Earth HE HUNG OUT WITH SINNERS! wow shocker lol. God does not turn his back when we sin. We are also not defined by our sin. God does not hate us he hates the Garbage that holds us down. Gods love is always constant we don't loose it nor do we earn it.
Love and Peace
-Man and Woman can not truly love without God because God is love!
Man and Woman's personalities are very much different but if we BOTH were made in the image of God doesn't that show us a glimpse of who he is? From the guys point of view hes powerful protecting and strong, from the woman's point of view hes loving nurturing and caring.
-Have you ever been asked to spend time in prayer and find yourself falling asleep? I know I have on multiply occasions. I always feel guilty, feeling like I am not a "good" christian. Something that our speaker in week one told us that it simply means you are at peace and familiar with God. don't feel ashamed for sleeping during prayer it just shows how content you are being with God. Another example of this would be if you came over to my parents house after a long day of work and you didn't know them or my house you would fight as hard as you could to stay awake, the last thing you would do would be to sleep.
Man and Woman's personalities are very much different but if we BOTH were made in the image of God doesn't that show us a glimpse of who he is? From the guys point of view hes powerful protecting and strong, from the woman's point of view hes loving nurturing and caring.
-Have you ever been asked to spend time in prayer and find yourself falling asleep? I know I have on multiply occasions. I always feel guilty, feeling like I am not a "good" christian. Something that our speaker in week one told us that it simply means you are at peace and familiar with God. don't feel ashamed for sleeping during prayer it just shows how content you are being with God. Another example of this would be if you came over to my parents house after a long day of work and you didn't know them or my house you would fight as hard as you could to stay awake, the last thing you would do would be to sleep.
The Trinity
In the beginning God created the Heavens and the Earth Genesis 1:1. The Hebrew version said in the beginning they created the heavens and the earth... God in Hebrew meant they? The father the son and the holy spirit, How cool is that. God has relationship within himself. I was taught in week one that God did NOT create out of lack out or of loneliness but out of UTTER JOY!!! they wanted to share there pure love with more then themselves, that's why they created man and woman. How this was explained to me was a husband and a wife make a child when they have to much love to keep within they want to share there life with a baby, its made out of happiness not boredom. Although through sinning we lost that connection and relationship with God (I will get more into that tomorrow) Jesus was so determined to fix that that he stepped out of his own connection with the father and the holy spirit to come to earth and die on the cross for us for ME. that is such a selfless God. I am so overwhelmed with Joy that i get to spend eternity with them in heaven :)
sorry for spelling mistakes there will be a lot :p
sorry for spelling mistakes there will be a lot :p
Tuesday, 15 January 2013
Couple of Photos of the base :)
the Dinning Palapa
Our Dock!
Our Pool
Drink Palapa
Where we have Lectures
Gods BeautyHey Everyone!
Hey guys so I just got the inspiration from my fellow YWAMers to do a blog! So what you should know is I am 18 years old my name is Shelby and I am currently on a Youth with a Missions (YWAM) Discipleship training school in Belize. The theme of our school is anticipate freedom :) I am so excited to see God move these couple months! I have been here for only 2 weeks now and I will share with you what is going on in my day and what I have been learning. I am so pumped to share this with you. Please feel free to ask questions I may not have the answer but others may. Prayer is also excepted :p
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